Walls

I have a story. A story of hurt and rejection, of being unloved and left on my own. To fulfill the needs of others but never having my needs met. I am supposed to be the strong one. The one everyone goes to to "fix it." So I have built a wall around myself. A wall so tall and thick that only God can remove it. This wall keeps me from feeling, from loving, from bonding with those people that are closest to me. I always have this empty place inside me because of this wall. I have emotional, physical and spiritual needs that need fulfilled but my wall keeps me from letting others and God help me. I am so scared of being hurt, rejected, and of not being loved that I don't allow myself to really open up. But I am here to tell you that God is bigger than my wall. Tonight I give my wall to Him. I don't want that emptiness inside me anymore. I want to love and allow Him to love me. To fill me with His Holy Spirit till I am full and overflowing with His love. To allow Him to become my wall of protection. I can't do it on my own anymore nor do I want too. I want to be whole. I want to be free from my own prison that I have built. Tonight I am asking God to remove my self built wall of protection and to fill me with His love and to help me fully realize that in Him alone I am protected and free. 

Praise God, I feel the walls shaking and beginning to crumble.