Hear My Heart

A friend of mine shared a song with me this morning. Hear My Heart by Jeff and Sheri Easter. It is beautiful and speaks to me. Let me share it with you. - Sometimes I feel, no one's ever been in this place before. This is hard and I'm not sure that I can do this anymore. I know some day I'll look back, and all this won't seem real, but Lord right now I need you, to know just how I feel. When there are no words to say, and no prayer that I can pray, hear my heart. When I don't have strength to try, and I've cried all I can cry, hear my heart. Cause you know every fear, and every doubt I cannot speak, you know all the ways I need you, and all the ways I'm weak, so I'll be quiet, so you can hear my heart. Every now and then, I recall a simple phrase or melody, that comforts and it quiets, lifts me up and then it carries me, far above the pain and hurt, I think will never end, the song speaks words I cannot, and it calms the fears within. When there are no words to say, and no prayer that I can pray, hear my heart. When I don't have strength to try, and I've cried all I can cry, hear my heart. You know every fear, and every doubt I cannot speak, you know all the ways I need you, and all the ways I'm weak, so I'll be quiet, so you can hear my heart.

Walls

I have a story. A story of hurt and rejection, of being unloved and left on my own. To fulfill the needs of others but never having my needs met. I am supposed to be the strong one. The one everyone goes to to "fix it." So I have built a wall around myself. A wall so tall and thick that only God can remove it. This wall keeps me from feeling, from loving, from bonding with those people that are closest to me. I always have this empty place inside me because of this wall. I have emotional, physical and spiritual needs that need fulfilled but my wall keeps me from letting others and God help me. I am so scared of being hurt, rejected, and of not being loved that I don't allow myself to really open up. But I am here to tell you that God is bigger than my wall. Tonight I give my wall to Him. I don't want that emptiness inside me anymore. I want to love and allow Him to love me. To fill me with His Holy Spirit till I am full and overflowing with His love. To allow Him to become my wall of protection. I can't do it on my own anymore nor do I want too. I want to be whole. I want to be free from my own prison that I have built. Tonight I am asking God to remove my self built wall of protection and to fill me with His love and to help me fully realize that in Him alone I am protected and free. 

Praise God, I feel the walls shaking and beginning to crumble.  

Help

Are you tired? Are you sick? I am both but I am learning to find rest and peace in Jesus. He is always there for me. It is so easy to be overcome with emotions and the every day to day going on's but take a few moments to spend with Him. He is right here waiting for you to look to Him for the help you need. He wants to be the shoulder you cry on. He wants to comfort you in your times of trial. Just start pouring your heart out to God. Be open and honest and let Him help you.

God Moments

Today was a day for tears and sadness. We buried an uncle today. It is always sad to lose someone near and dear but at the same time we are overjoyed that he is in heaven with Jesus. As I was standing their watching the burial take place I was overcome with a sense of pride and gratefulness for the family I married into. This family like all families have their problems but on this occasion everyone bonded together in support of each other and to comfort one another. While I am very sad to for the loss of a loved one, I am grateful for the occasion to see this wonderful legacy myself, my spouse and my dear children have in these people. I don't know if I would have ever seen it without the help of today. I am very thankful for that moment my eyes were opened to this wonderful beautiful family. If you are going through a difficult moment take the time to look around and let God open your eyes to the way He is using this moment to help you grow.